Thursday, February 2, 2012

WTH Becomes Inspiration

Dang, there's been so much excitement in my life most of January. My mother was hospitalized twice and I was buried under stuff...y'know, sleeping at the hospital, getting sick, life responsibilities, deadlines, etc...we've all been there. I don't seem to have a great track record when it comes to getting my posts up on time on NAC (SORRY) but I swear I'm going to start prepping early now that I've made it to February. Yes, it felt like forever....

I'm finally starting to get more organized now that things are settling down..knock on wood...which I haven't been very good at lately. You'd think with all the calendars, organizers, and such I'd be more on top of things. LOL --  Hopefully the rest of the year will be drama free. *Crosses fingers* But out of all the chaos, I've finally been writing again. I've locked myself up in my room and forced myself to write as much as I can. Of course, my writing speed has decreased dramatically over the years but I'm hoping that once I finish this book I will have enough momentum to start the next one and finish it quicker. Or, at least, that's what my BFF says will happen. 

I will have to say that these hurdles have really made me more aware of my writing goals. It's made me more inspired and determined to get a new publishing contract or two this year. I suppose while I was trying to deal with "life", my buddies were out there finishing and selling books. A few made it on the USA Today Bestseller list and some in the NY Times List, which I'm extremely happy to hear..but it really lit a fire under me. I've been writing romance for a good eight years now and although I have books out, I don't have nearly as many as I've wanted to publish. Looking at other's accomplishments I realize the need to push myself harder, fight more, believe in myself more. Writer's are the most sensitive souls and when we get a bad review, hear criticism, or get rejections, we automatically beat ourselves up mentally. I know I go through those depression slumps and I go through days when all I want to do is walk away....I guess it's easy to walk away--but if I did that, it would only mean I was never really serious about my writing career....

This year it's going to be different. This year I am going to pull myself together and hopefully by December I can look back and be proud I didn't give up.

Thanks for not stoning me :)

5 comments:

Jina Bacarr said...

Jax, first, I hope your mom is better!! Every second you spend with her is precious...

Second, it's one step at a time. Sometimes that step is a giant one; sometimes it's a baby one.

The idea is to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep going...

Wynter said...

What Jina said;-) I have circumstances similar to yours right now, although my parental issues are more temporary since mine are only in town part of the year. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help you stay on track.

Jax Cassidy said...

Thanks, Jina! Once again you've brightened up my day :)

Wynter, we must make more of an effort to go out and keep motivated!

Callie Croix said...

Hope your mom is doing better! Something like that forces everything else onto the back burner.

I wish you the best in your output this year, but please never ever measure yourself against other writers! There's only one Jax Cassidy, after all. Be proud and content with what you can accomplish.

Paige Tyler said...

Jax - Hope your mom feel better!

And I'm totally with you on getting down in the dumps if I read a crappy review. But then I remember why I do what I do - because I love to write - and I keep doing it!

*hugs*
Paige