Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Dear John...


These will be the hardest words I've ever had to write. Because I'm leaving you even as I can't imagine a day without you. Every step, every goal, every dream...you've walked right by my side, hand in hand. We've been friends, partners. You've comforted me when I've failed and have been the one to pat me on the back when I've succeeded in spite of insurmountable odds.

We're closer than close, you and I.

We're intimate.

But, the truth is I can't afford you any longer. You're the worst narcotic. My drug of choice. I've told myself time and time again that I'm going to give you up...and yet, I find myself drawn to you, picking you back up like a ratty knapsack even as I despair over our relationship. We've been together for so long that I can't see a you without me and a me without you--I don't know what I look like without you. But, I have to find out. See, I can't grow with you. I can't become the person I was meant to be, to accomplish the things I've dreamed of with you by my side.

You're the enemy of my destiny.

So, I'm leaving. Cutting you off. Cold turkey. I'm sure we'll have chance meetings--maybe even a relapse--but from every brush with you, I'll come away stronger and more determined to see what I can be without you.

Good bye, my friend, my Procrastination.

9 comments:

Michelle Polaris said...

Love it! It's time to kick that monster to the curb. You're too nice.

Cara McKenna said...

Please don't be mad, but I've totally had a fling with that guy, Naima. In the forbidden moment, he makes you feel like what you're doing is right, but then all you're left with is heartache and a desk covered in mini candy bar wrappers. The bastard.

Katie Reus said...

Lol! Absolutely love it :)

Kristal Lee said...

I'm with Cara...I've been around the block a few times with this guy too. He's very creepy, the way he seeps into our lives.

Fabulous way to say good-bye to him, Naima.

Naima Simone said...

Hi, Michelle!
Since we've been...ahem...intimates for so long, I couldn't be brutal. *sniff* It's a hard break-up on both sides...LOL!

Naima Simone said...

I knew he was an unfaithful son of a sea buscuit all along!! He makes you feel so awesome and then leaves you to crash 'n burn...only with me it's bags of Chex Mix and Kettle Corn microwave popcorn bags left on my desk! Grrrr!!!

Naima Simone said...

Thanks, Katie!! *batting eyelashes*
LOL!!

Naima Simone said...

Thanks, Kristal! I'm finally kicking this two-timer to the curb! I mean, I ain't saying we mght not have a one-night-stand every once in a while...but, uh, our long term relationship is ova! Complete with neck slash--figuratively speaking, of course. Hee-hee!

Dalton Diaz said...

It was easier to give up chocolate.